Thursday, July 7, 2011

People are so strange

Was it always this way with the human race? I read Chumash, tehillim each day and the same complaints about human nature rushing to judgement,thinking like lemmings, mob rule. Some in the media can't let go of the Anthony trial. The woman came into court with lip gloss, hair done, looking like a doll, blinking and laughing with lawyers and judge said she will be released from prison next week, I dont remember the date, but within a week. Media are asking one another what will she do? where will she go? Who the phuck cares? There is a hadith about mohammed sitting among a group of believers talking and he saw approaching people who were coming to kill him. As they approached where he was, they didnt see him-he was sitting in plain sight, they couldnt see him. The hadith wanted to make a point that G-d can make one 'see' or 'blind' as the case may be, but everything that happens is from above. I'm sure there are many comparable Jewish tales, I wasnt schooled in them. But belief in hadith isnt necessary to accept the moral here, only a belief a G-d. This jury was blinded for a purpose G-d desired. If this woman is innocent, she is meant to be seen that way, if she is guilty a time will come that her guilt will be uncovered. I was listening to the radio this morning as watching television is utterly depressing, filled with miserable people, ungrateful for all they have, ruining their homes by hoarding, greed, hurting animals because of their own mental problems. Was the world always this way? In Tehillim the early prayers remind G-d to have mercy on the people He chose for Himself, to protect and guide and the writer speaks as if it was only yesterday, a generation or so ago that memories of being taken from Egypt, being freed and given the Law, of redemption and tschuvah...written with such a fresh voice, a living dialogue between Man and G-d. Then the tone changes as Asaph begins to write and he sounds grieved for the Jewish people, for how far they've strayed from the Law, grieving for G-d, asking for mercy and forgiveness...then the words sound far far away, as if the knowledge of how special it was in those first years, begins to dissipate, almost is forgotten, is barely a memory as the writer speaks of people seeking money, accusing others, gossiping. David ha Melech speaks of his bones shattered, feeling like a shriveled wineskin, hiding from enemies, wanting to be made invisible to them, protect me he asks G-d, from those who want me for nothing but favors or those who want only to do evil to me and do not know me. Perhaps my error is mixing everything in one stew pot. Jews think and live differently from non Jews. But as things stand in this generation, I cannot say if the difference is better or not. Knowing how the Rebbe wants so strongly for good and positive works to reveal and bring about Moshiach, for this era to be ushered in, you contrast this with the pervading evil and I am overwhelmed some days with inexplicable grief. So quickly to say, because I want to leave this subject of this woman whose guilt or innocense will remain a mystery to the rest of humankind, the sooner its all finished and we are where we are meant to be, the better.

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